Insanity

I am sick of pretending I like certain people
I am sick of being bubbly happy Pam
I am sick of not being able to speak my mind
I am sick of being afright people might not like me
I am sick of pretending to be someone I am not
I am sick of people leaning on me and giving nothing back in return
I am sick of people thinking I am obsessed
I am sick of the way girls look at me when they see me next to Sander
I am sick of listening to my stupid colleages
I am sick of defending meselve
I am sick of people thinking less of me because I spent money
I am sick of all those people who think wearing Lolita means you have to love Japan
I am sick of my boss
I am sick of all those parents who think I am the one raising their child
I am sick of my brother who seems to have it all
I am sick of all those people who see me as an example
I am sick of being seen as a " mom"
I am sick of being alone most of the time
I am sick of not being able to have Sander by my side as much as I would like
I am sick of being a fatty
I am sick of excusing meselve to others
I am sick of being afright
I am sick of al those people who say I am arrogant
I am sick of wanting it all
I am sick of being lady like
I am sick of always being the leader
I am sick of not being "her"
I am sick of being the strong one
I am sick of pretending that I don't care
I am sick of being judged by other

I am sorry...it just makes me sick...